as the new year has begun I'm thankful for the last year and it's many challenges and changes. Mostly, I'm ever-more aware that God is faithful. Things rarely turn out as I plan or imagine, but His plans and imagination are so much greater! It's a beautiful reality to come to face. God is in control. So many things are uncertain. But I am certain that my God LOVEs me and that He knows what's going on. I need not worry one bit. I must take responsibility for my own choices. I must accept the consequences of my own choices, and even those of others' choices and actions. But I also choose to believe that God works it all together for the good of those who love Him and ultimately... for His glory. How great is our God!
So, this next year... I hope to love more generously. I want to be more friendly. I want to create more out of my heart and not only out of the obligations of my vocation. I want to read more. To learn more history... what's gone on in the world up until now. To pay attention to what's going on in the world now. To take responsibility for the state of things around me, for I can do something about it... no matter how small my contribution may seem. to look forward towards the goal and at the same time to BE ALL HERE. wherever "here" may be. to continue to dream. of everything being as it should be. One day. It will be.
Friday, January 11, 2008
Monday, September 03, 2007
Letting go... it's time for something new.
I believe I'll start blogging here. I've been wanting to move on from xanga for a while. Now is the time.
What's mostly going through my mind now is how dangerous it is to love a dream and not realize what should be the reality of that dream just really isn't. I don't understand how something can seem so good, so of God, and then suddenly be nothing. I'm so thankful for family. friends who are like family. the body of Christ. without which I would be falling into a pit of despair. Now, that, that is God's grace. depression comes so easily for me, and though I've shed quite a few tears in recent days, I am not depressed. and I'm thankful. I'm thankful we didn't hang on to a relationship that was not worth hanging on to. I'm thankful that there is hope of something better. I'm thankful that it is possible to relate to others rightly, and one day, we'll be able to all live together without constantly hurting one another. we're getting better at it.
I believe I'll start blogging here. I've been wanting to move on from xanga for a while. Now is the time.
What's mostly going through my mind now is how dangerous it is to love a dream and not realize what should be the reality of that dream just really isn't. I don't understand how something can seem so good, so of God, and then suddenly be nothing. I'm so thankful for family. friends who are like family. the body of Christ. without which I would be falling into a pit of despair. Now, that, that is God's grace. depression comes so easily for me, and though I've shed quite a few tears in recent days, I am not depressed. and I'm thankful. I'm thankful we didn't hang on to a relationship that was not worth hanging on to. I'm thankful that there is hope of something better. I'm thankful that it is possible to relate to others rightly, and one day, we'll be able to all live together without constantly hurting one another. we're getting better at it.
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